It's been a long year, and deciding to do a 12-week online course wasn't a good idea. I know that now. It's a fine course, just not for me, not at this time in my life and in my art journey. Also, it's really a course for beginners abstract painters in acrylics. Not me. I should also have realised that there would be over one thousand people doing this course. Not an environment in which I thrive. I do best in one-to-one interactions, in small groups. I struggle to get my voice heard in larger groups. The teacher and her coaches are on one track, and it seems that any time I asked a question about the structure of the course, or expressing my personal struggle with the structure, rather, I got a fairly standard answer. As an autistic person, that is not good for me, particularly as I definitely struggle with Rejection Sensitive Disphoria.
Well, anyways, there you are. Still discovering things about myself. It will take me a while to process all of this. So what I do in those situations, is I retreat into myself. But I'm also ok with sharing this on social media. It's much easier to do this on social media than in person. And also, I soldier on. Because that is what I do and also, there is still some benefit to the course. And also, fear of missing out. But I have left the Facebook group, and feel much better already!!
This one was another mark-making assignment (yes, it seems there were many of those - not sure how it differs from the earlier one in the course!!). Done in watercolour, with some Neocolor 2 drawing and lots of dragging of cards through the rich paint! Yes there is plenty I would do differently in this painting, but I do love the pink lines at the top of the cliffs!
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